Monday, August 23

Motivation? Yes. I think so.

Today, I feel like winning.

Know why?

Because somewhere someone is losing, and I figure, luck's gonna take it's precious time getting to me, so might as well take it into my own hands.

Thus: I skipped out on the free cookies in the square today, and the free burgers, and THEN didn't drive to get curly fries from JitB.

But... It's not that hard to ignore food, right? Tons of people do it. What's worth a blog post in that?

Moments after feeling proud of myself for passing up free food (or calories, as I like to refer to all edibles), I heard that there was a party that most of the people in my fraternity were invited to, but I wasn't.

My first thought was not anger, or jealousy, but...

If I were 15, 30, 65 pounds lighter... I'd have been invited. No one would want to miss the chance to see THIS woman in party gear with a shot glass in tow.

So I'm NOT upset about it- Just MOTIVATED! I WILL get that shocked look of, "WOW!" and hear people whisper, "When did she get so thhiiinnnn?" behind my back.

And... I won't miss out on free booze again because of my size. *sheepish grin*

Keep your goals in mind, home-slices! That's how you reach them!


Parties WILL be had!

Saturday, August 21

Back to School Strength

(Texas is HOT guys.)

-You know what else is hot?-
 Gettin' back into the natural groove of planning life around an eccentric diet.

Summer is weird, in that you can get away with a lot more than you might while away at school (if you go to school).
For instance, I've got a lot of buddies, and they like to eat. A lot. 
And while I do appreciate the companionship, I'm alright without the pounds that come with the bonding experience of mealtimes.

My tactics, as always, are to... available always for study time.
...pretend to ADORE coffee dates.
...spend money on shopping as opposed to sweets.
...sleep in instead of focus on hunger pains.
...and, my favorite and least healthy habit, leave caloric room for an alcoholic night.

Try out some of those. Being ana doesn't mean you have to give up having fun. <3

(Speaking of fun:
Now that I'm in a situation where the internet won't crash whenever it sees the word "anorexic", I'm going to check up on all of you beautiful people and your lives!)

I hope tonight brings dreams for tomorrow.